Acceptance

I never realized that when I don't post, people get worried and wonder what is going on with me. So here is a post that I've been thinking about for awhile.

For the past few weeks, I've accepted what has been given to me, two beautiful angels in heaven that have changed my life. I've accepted the fact that I was pregnant once and gave birth to 2 beautiful girls that I am never going to see again in this lifetime. And I'm not moving on because they have forever changed me and who I am, but I am living life to the fullest because you never know how long your life will be. For my girls it was just a few moments in the womb that I had created for them and during those brief moments, they touched not only me and my husband, but our entire close knit family and friends. Without these people, I would be lost. Through my friends, I have another network of friends that have embraced me into this club that no one wants to belong. They have walked in my shoes and on the bad days they carry me through. They check in on me to make sure I'm walking proudly in these shoes that I don't want to be wearing. They reassure me that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that they survived it. So I am hopeful. Hopeful for the future and what it holds. Hopeful for a house full of children and laughter. But, I will never forget and I will never get over my two beautiful angels that have a special place in my heart. They have touched me...Have you ever been touched by an angel....or two?? I am truly blessed. I dedicate this one to you, maddy and liv.